Man, I don't even know where to start. Don't worry, this isn't a bad post or anything; in fact, it is quite the opposite. :) I just don't know where to begin actually. :) Okay, let's see: I have had the privilege of meeting up w/some very "old" friends of mine. By "old" I mean that I have known them for YEARS!!!!! We have had some wonderful experiences and LOTS of FUN times!!!!! We go back..............waaaaaaay back!!!! We have kept in touch over the years, but at times, we lose touch for several yrs. at a time as well. Sooooo, in the last few months, we have "met back up" via facebook (gotta love it) and I have enjoyed their company immensely (we have gone to lunch and had a day-long shopping trip, too). It has gotten me to thinking, tho, about the many people who come and go throughout our lives! When you are at different points in your life and are close w/a person (persons), you aren't really thinking that "someday" they might not be a part of your life any longer. Let's face it - we lose touch w/MANY people who once mattered a great deal to us! I don't know about you, but I have times when I think of these people and wonder about them (What are they doing? What did they become? Are they happy? Do they ever think of me?). I am realizing how lucky I am to have had sooooo many good people in my life through the years!!!! I would be lying, tho, if I didn't admit, that it also makes me sad! I want to go back in time and tell them how much I love them!!!! Hug them at every opportunity!!!!! Let them know they were special to me!!!! I wonder what kind of friend I was to them. I mean, I think I was good, but....................WAS I?????? Could I have been better???? Did I make an impression on their life the way they did mine?? Soooo, I guess what I am trying to say is.................. I am lucky to have reconnected w/my "old" friends this past month!!! I am VERY thankful they have come back into my life!!! I missed them.......................a LOT!!!!!!!!! :)) But.............what about all the others? I know that many of them (most of them, probably) will simply be.......................a memory........................and that is fine! I am lucky to have such good memories of such wonderful people I have been honored to know! I am wondering, tho, if you "could" contact a dear "old" friend, would you??? If you had the opportunity, what would you do? Would you want to "be" contacted? Or....................should some things stay just that..................a memory?! I only ask b/c, I am sure, people don't even know the impact they have had on a life!!!! They couldn't know b/c even "we" don't know it at the time!!!!! "I" certainly didn't realize it - that is for sure!!!!
I guess a good lesson here would be......................to learn from this! Start treating the people in my life NOW as if they might not be there tomorrow! Now, don't read me wrong, I don't mean be all OCD about it. lol!!!! I just mean to treat them good! Don't be afraid to say "I love you!" Put simply.................just care.................and.................. be aware! People come and go throughout so many phases of our lives! Be aware of the good friends you have surrounding you today!!!!!! :)) I believe God gives us friends, at certain times, for a reason! And, then, some of these friends move on, to someone else who needs them more!
So, do me a favor, and whenever you think of an old friend, stop and say a prayer for them!!!! First, give thanks for them being a part of your life at one time, and then, say a prayer for their live now!!!! That is what I try and do and it helps b/c many of them......................... I MISS!!!!! I wish I knew then..............what I know now!!!! Maybe...............that's just life!!!!
I'm just feeling sad and I don't know why! I'm not even talking about death, either. Just old friends who I miss! :)) I wish I could tell them!!!! Maybe I'm just getting old!!!!! :)) lol!!!!!
I think I'm gonna end for now and ponder my thoughts!!!! hahaha
Have a good week!
Love, Cissa
P.S. After a little bit of pondering, I am realizing that a great song by Kenny Chesney may just "sum up" what I am feeling! :)) It's called, "I Go Back" and it is very good! Soooo, maybe, Cissa is just "going back" and remembering all my many "good" times!!!! Like I said, I am LUCKY to have LOTS of them!!!!! Here's to MANY MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cheers!!!!!! :)))
